Live With Me Now - New song on Soundcloud

This year is the year of living in the moment. Being present. Connecting with people! This song is all about that.

Should of let it go

But my heart says no

Should have let it fly 

Should have let it pass me by

It never lasts

As soon as we love its in the past

It never lasts

As soon as we live its in the past

So live with me now

Live with me

I really miss being in a band. I think I may ask M to do harmony for my next song! We'll see if we can figure it out.

<3 KM

Just To Be Still - New Song on Soundcloud

Conflicted consumerism.

Just to Be Still

- KM

I need a day

Just to be still

Just to lay here

Against your will

And I wont eat

And I wont drink

And I wont listen

I'll barely blink

Cuz I don't wanna 

I don't wanna

I don't wanna want

But I 

I want it

I want it all 

And I don't wanna 

I don't wanna

I don't wanna

I don't wanna cry 

But I'm 

I'm bawling 

My makeup is ruined 

And I don't wanna 

I don't wanna 

I don't wanna fight 

But I'm 

I'm yelling

I'm screaming at you

I don't wanna I don't wanna I don't wanna want

Please just hold 

Hold On

Half the Same Person - New Song on Soundcloud

Always in my DNA.

Half the Same Person

Sweet memories they never fade

No they're alive

Sometimes they change

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

Wish I could show you

Maybe its all meant to be

Maybe you're looking down at me

But we don't really know

No we don't really know

Maybe you're shining down from above

Sending us all your love

But we don't really know 

Don't really don't really don't really know

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

Sweet memories they never fade

No they're alive

Sometimes they change

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<3 KM

In An Hourglass - New Song

When you can't catch a breath with vivid and nonsensical dreams.

In An Hourglass

-me

The days 

Flow through my fingers 

Like grains of sand

We're on the edge again 

I feel its sink or swim 

I'll try 

I'll try my best not to hold you down

I'll keep my head up now

I'll try 

I'll try my best just to stand up tall

Just need some help that's all 

I feel its sink or swim

You may see the paintings 

But can you hear them speak

They're closing in around me

As I'm losing all my teeth

The fish tanks all are breaking

And the fox squirrels on my knee

I think it'd make a difference 

If I knew just what this means

Can I get just a little bit stronger now

Can I get just a little bit thinner now

Can I be just a little more patient now

The days 

Flow through my fingers

Like grains of sand 

We're on the edge again 

I feel we're sinking in 

I fear its sink or swim 

I feel its sink or swim

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Hope that you all are having a beautiful week so far!! 

☮ & ♡ KM

I'll Be Happy Just For You - New Song on Soundcloud

This ones for my babies :).

I'll be happy just for you

I'll be happy just for you

Even when I'm feeling blue

I'll be happy just for you

Baby darling

Don't you cry

You're the apple of my eye

The sun will rise 

The stars may fall

But I will be there through it all

Time, time spins faster

Time, times get harder

There may be times

When we may drift apart

But know my darling know
You'll always be in my heart

I will smile just for you
I will smile just for you
Even when I'm feeling blue
I will smile just for you

Time, time get tougher

Time, times spin faster

There may be times

When we may drift apart

But know my darling know
You'll always be in my heart

I'll be happy just for you

I'll be happy just for you

Even when I'm feeling blue

I'll be happy just for you

☮ & ♡ KM

Only Feeling - New Song on Soundcloud + Typology rant

Here's the latest edition to my song diary.
 

Only Feeling - me

I've got an ocean full of tidal waves

I need a float so I can drift away

Image is 

Everything 

Show me now

What you bring

Elbows in

Let's begin

Give me a window

Give me a hand

Give me a threshold 

Give me a plan

Is this the end all

I always run till I fall

Now my feet are slowing

Give me a window

Give me a hand

Give me a threshold 

Give me a plan

This can't be it at all (recorded as This can't be the end all - changing it)

I think I'll manage a crawl

And just keep on going

I've traveled down a hundred rugged roads

Don't need a dollar just to fill my soul

Music is 

Everything

Show me now 

what you bring

Elbows in 

Let's begin

Ladadadadadie

ladadada

Ladadadadadie

ladadada

You're always thinking

Always thinking

I'm only feeling x2

Despite the shadows and the teary eyes

You're always seeing sunny skies

The heart knows

Everything

Show me now

What you bring

Elbows in

Let's begin

Give me a window

Give me a hand

Give me a threshold 

Give me a plan

Is this the end all

I always run till I fall

Now my feet are slowing

Give me a window

Give me a hand

Give me a threshold 

Give me a plan

This can't be it at all

I think I'll manage a crawl

And just keep on going

On Typology

This song is titled "Only Feeling" as a side reference to Jung Typology tests. I am a NF (Intuitive Feeling) person or Idealist. I enjoy logic, math and technology, but my intuition and feelings rule when it comes to life decisions and relationships.  I am a total dreamer and that is the trademark of Idealists. Sometime's it's hard for me to understand "T's" or Thinkers.

Right now I am considered an ENFP but the E (Extrovert) and the P (Perceiving) aren't as strong as the NF. I have tested as INFP and ENFJ in the past, while going through different phases. The NF always stays the same. At the moment I test as ENFP across the board and it seems to be the type that I identify the most with.

After Jung created typology Myers & Briggs contributed to it's further development. Then Keirsey came along and came up with nicknames for each type. Keirsey labeled ENFPs as Champions. According to this Wikipedia article, "Champions have a strong desire to make their thoughts known to the world." This is ridiculously accurate in my case. I have been performing all of my life in one way or another and I am always looking out for kindred spirits. 

Do you know your personality type? Has it ever changed? If you haven't been tested yet this free one from Humanetrics is a good start. People can totally fit into different categories, similar to astrology, but I find that it's solid information to help me along my path towards self understanding.

"Elbows in, Let's begin" is residual training from years of ballet and jazz classes. I totally miss them! I'm thinking of joining some sort of hiphop class for exercise, but I'm gonna have to settle for video tutorials for now. One day I'll be dance video ready...

☮ & ♡ KM

More Than An Angel - New Original Song on Soundcloud

Sooner or later we all find ourselves in a situation in which we lose our innocence. Some people seem to glide effortlessly through this, remaining unaffected. Some chose to stay ignorant. Others feel shattered to the core when they realize how brutal the world can be and hurt that things were hidden from them. Some runaway, hide, shout and/or break things. A select few rise to action to try to fix the things that they don't like about the world.

I think I have done all of these things in different situations! There have been points in my life when I felt so overwhelmed that I just couldn't process or deal with things. Then I learned that it's okay to break down every once in awhile. Becoming aware of things can be intense, especially for emotional people. Sometimes it can feel a bit hopeless. Still yet, I feel like it is so much better to learn what is going on in the world and in my own life, the good and the bad.

The more I try to learn the more I realize that I will continue to be the naive one in many circumstances because there are so many things to learn and knowledge itself is always changing and growing. But having an open mind and a lot of patience is all you ever really need to show you care. Growing pains hurt no matter how old you are but if you deal with them gracefully they will make you a better person in the end.

Hope that you are all having a great start to your week!

Staring Up, Afar - New Song on Soundcloud!

I lost someone really close to me this year. My Daddy. I can't believe that he is gone. He was so special to me. Just the best. I miss him so much every day and I know that I will feel that way for the rest of my life. But I know that some way, somehow he is there looking out from afar. I just wish he was here. He left way too early, too young.

Staring Up, Afar

by me

I'm staring up, afar

Cuz I miss you

I don't know where you are

I can't call you

I just feel so lost inside

Without you as my guide

But I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart 

And in the waves of the ocean

I know that you have not abandoned me

Yeah I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart

And in the waves of the ocean 

I know that you have not forgotten me

Yeah I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars 

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far

But I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart 

And in the waves of the ocean

You know that I have not abandoned you

Yeah I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart

And in the waves of the ocean 

You know that I have not forgotten you

Yeah I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far

I'm staring up, afar

Cuz I miss you

I don't know where you are

I can't call you

I just feel so lost inside

Without you as my guide

To all of those missing a loved one, I send you so many internet hugs and hope that you can find the strength you need to carry on. 

Here is another song about my Daddy You Are Gold. 

<3 KM

Give & Take & Take & Give - New Song on Soundcloud

Love and trust are two things that tend to leave us all exposed. I don't like feeling vulnerable but sometimes we all have to go out on a limb to find our true purpose and our true loved ones.

Through the quest for trust we show each other our ugly sides. You can tell its true love if you end up loving that ugly side as well. Sometimes things get messy, feelings get hurt and it leaves you feeling lost but it is worth fixing if you genuinely take the time to understand each other on each constantly evolving level.

To be clear I am very anti violence, physical and emotional. However, I feel like in many cases it is worth the extra effort to sort things out and make things right. It is natural to have disagreements but it is a whole other thing to be oppressed. If you are in an abusive relationship with a significant other, a relative or even a friend please find a way out. Sometimes we all need to leave people we love for our own sanity, although it is one of the most painful things to have to go through.

Give & Take & Take & Give

by me

Love's just a game

That I'm sick of playing

The rush the pain

You know I think I'll just sleep in

You know my dirty little secrets more than

Any body else

The salt in my wounds

I guess I put it there myself

Do what you do 

Do what you like

But I just 'aint 

Putting up a fight 

Tonight

That's just love

It don't make sense

It's the only reason why 

You'll always have a second chance

That's just love

So don't let go

Cuz before you know it 

All that's left is just a thread of hope

That's just lo o o o ove

Lo o o o o o ove x4

You & me & me & you and dignity

Give & take & take & give serenity

Things are never

What they're supposed to be

But I know that I love you

And you - you love me

You love me

Love 

It don't make sense

It's the only reason why 

You'll always have a second chance

That's just love

So don't let go

Cuz before you know it 

All that's left is just a thread of hope

That's just lo o o o ove

Lo o o o o o ove x4

That's just love

When Did You Go? First song on Soundcloud!

Hey beauties! I am finally up and running on Soundcloud, yay! I just posted one song tonight and will be posting more soon. No big productions yet, just me and my guitar but it's a fresh new start after deciding to give Youtube a break to focus on sound quality. Gotta <3 Garageband!

This song is for anyone missing somebody in their life right now. 

When Did You Go
- KM Fern

When did you go

out of my life i need you so

whenever we’re down and out

i only want to hear your voice

we didnt even have a choice

As the sun moves

So many days have past

But our memories

You know theyll always last

The time is ticking slowly

The stars across the sky

I cant help wondering if only

You got to say goodbye

Neither did I

When did you go

Out of my life i need you so

Whenever we’re down and out

I only want to hear your voice

We didnt even have a choice

mmmhmm mmmhmmm

mmhmmmhhm

mmmmhmmmmmmhm

I only want to hear you

Only want to hear you

Only want to heeeeeeaaar you

The smiles you left on my face

Are forever in my heart

The laughs weve shared at your place

Are never very far

Though we’re apart

When did you go

Out of my life i need you so

Whenever we’re down and out

I only want to hear your voice

We didnt even have a choice

Happy Veteran's day to everyone that has served or is serving America, bless you all!

<3KM