Half the Same Person - New Song on Soundcloud

Always in my DNA.

Half the Same Person

Sweet memories they never fade

No they're alive

Sometimes they change

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

Wish I could show you

Maybe its all meant to be

Maybe you're looking down at me

But we don't really know

No we don't really know

Maybe you're shining down from above

Sending us all your love

But we don't really know 

Don't really don't really don't really know

You and I are half the same person

And all my hurts 

I know you could feel them

Half my joys are your joys too

Now its so good I wish I could show you

Sweet memories they never fade

No they're alive

Sometimes they change

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<3 KM

Let's All Be Gypsies! New Song on Soundcloud

I love to wander. Every once in awhile I think that having the freedom to move from place to place in a heartbeat would be my absolute dream life. But then I remember how much I love my leather sofa... I think I just need to make a ton of money so I can wander during the summer and settle down during the winter.

Let's All Be Gypsies

-me

I'm going 99

My mind 

Is always moving

Yeah we say this all the time

But its

Much more than dreaming

I lie awake 

Can't stop the

Can't stop the beat

I feel a quake 

Right under

Under my feet

So come on darling 

Roll along with me 

Let's all be gypsies

Leave our apartment

Sell all our things

And buy an RV

We'll roll from Portland to Ontario

Then drive all the way to Mexico

So come on darling 

Roll along with me

Let's all be gypsies

I lie awake 

Can't stop the

Can't stop the beat

I feel a quake 

Right under

Under my feet

So come on darling 

Roll along with me 

Let's all be gypsies

Leave our apartment

Sell all our things

And buy an RV

I can write and sing and you can code

Between you and me we're bound to hit gold

So come on darling ride along with me 

Let's all be gypsies

I'm going 99

My mind 

Is always moving

Yeah we say this all the time

But its

Much more than dreaming

☮ & ♡ KM

In An Hourglass - New Song

When you can't catch a breath with vivid and nonsensical dreams.

In An Hourglass

-me

The days 

Flow through my fingers 

Like grains of sand

We're on the edge again 

I feel its sink or swim 

I'll try 

I'll try my best not to hold you down

I'll keep my head up now

I'll try 

I'll try my best just to stand up tall

Just need some help that's all 

I feel its sink or swim

You may see the paintings 

But can you hear them speak

They're closing in around me

As I'm losing all my teeth

The fish tanks all are breaking

And the fox squirrels on my knee

I think it'd make a difference 

If I knew just what this means

Can I get just a little bit stronger now

Can I get just a little bit thinner now

Can I be just a little more patient now

The days 

Flow through my fingers

Like grains of sand 

We're on the edge again 

I feel we're sinking in 

I fear its sink or swim 

I feel its sink or swim

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Hope that you all are having a beautiful week so far!! 

☮ & ♡ KM

Staring Up, Afar - New Song on Soundcloud!

I lost someone really close to me this year. My Daddy. I can't believe that he is gone. He was so special to me. Just the best. I miss him so much every day and I know that I will feel that way for the rest of my life. But I know that some way, somehow he is there looking out from afar. I just wish he was here. He left way too early, too young.

Staring Up, Afar

by me

I'm staring up, afar

Cuz I miss you

I don't know where you are

I can't call you

I just feel so lost inside

Without you as my guide

But I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart 

And in the waves of the ocean

I know that you have not abandoned me

Yeah I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart

And in the waves of the ocean 

I know that you have not forgotten me

Yeah I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars 

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far

But I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart 

And in the waves of the ocean

You know that I have not abandoned you

Yeah I still see you in the stars

And at the bottom of my heart

And in the waves of the ocean 

You know that I have not forgotten you

Yeah I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far from where we are

But I still see you in the stars

So close yet so far

I'm staring up, afar

Cuz I miss you

I don't know where you are

I can't call you

I just feel so lost inside

Without you as my guide

To all of those missing a loved one, I send you so many internet hugs and hope that you can find the strength you need to carry on. 

Here is another song about my Daddy You Are Gold. 

<3 KM

Escape - For a Moment. New Song on Soundcloud!

There are moments in life when the only cure is music. This song is about those moments. 

Escape: For a Moment

by - me

Just holding on

to my favorite song

my hearts in every line

as I close my eyes

I hear every sound

I hear it all around 

and I tune you out

I don't want to shout

You're calling me back but I won't go

You're moving too fast but I am slow

I need this today

I need this today 

I need to escape x2

I'm not ready to take a stand

I'm not ready to hold your hand

I'm not ready 

for anything at all

I'm not ready to make a change 

I'm not ready to rearrange 

I'm not ready 

for anything at all

la dai dai 

la dai dai

la da dai....

Just holding on

to my favorite song

my hearts in every line

as I close my eyes

I hear every sound

I hear it all around 

and I tune you out

I don't want to shout

You're calling me back but I won't go

You're moving too fast but I am slow

I need this today

I need this today 

I need to escape

<3 KM

When Did You Go? First song on Soundcloud!

Hey beauties! I am finally up and running on Soundcloud, yay! I just posted one song tonight and will be posting more soon. No big productions yet, just me and my guitar but it's a fresh new start after deciding to give Youtube a break to focus on sound quality. Gotta <3 Garageband!

This song is for anyone missing somebody in their life right now. 

When Did You Go
- KM Fern

When did you go

out of my life i need you so

whenever we’re down and out

i only want to hear your voice

we didnt even have a choice

As the sun moves

So many days have past

But our memories

You know theyll always last

The time is ticking slowly

The stars across the sky

I cant help wondering if only

You got to say goodbye

Neither did I

When did you go

Out of my life i need you so

Whenever we’re down and out

I only want to hear your voice

We didnt even have a choice

mmmhmm mmmhmmm

mmhmmmhhm

mmmmhmmmmmmhm

I only want to hear you

Only want to hear you

Only want to heeeeeeaaar you

The smiles you left on my face

Are forever in my heart

The laughs weve shared at your place

Are never very far

Though we’re apart

When did you go

Out of my life i need you so

Whenever we’re down and out

I only want to hear your voice

We didnt even have a choice

Happy Veteran's day to everyone that has served or is serving America, bless you all!

<3KM

Why all singer/songwriters should play an instrument + tips for aspiring guitarists

If you have been following my blog for awhile you probably know that I am a songwriter. Singing and songwriting is a huge part of my life. It's something that I will do always and forever. But unlike songwriting playing an instrument while singing has not come easy to me.

Learning an instrument when you are used to being a Soprano 1 can be really irritating to say the least. Although I have sang in choirs and musicals in the past, it was very hard for me to pick up an instrument. At first I was unable to make it play the sounds that I wanted to convey. I had no idea how to make those sounds and I had a hard time singing in time while playing an instrument. I was just a mess.

This frustration kept me from committing to instruments in the past. I got disappointed because whatever instrument I was trying out at the time sounded too twangy, too silly or too country. I was not patient enough with them so I would just sing.

Finally my husband convinced me to get over it. I decided to start with the keyboard and eventually I was able to pick up the guitar. It is much easier for us to collaborate now that I can play too. He is still leagues ahead of me in that department but he also has much more experience. I am finally seeing the benefits of continued practice and I don't feel like a newbie anymore. It is still such a process but I can finally, actually say that I know what my style is. I am working towards making it come to life a little more every day.

So singer/songwriters, the moral of the story is that if you really want your songs to be heard, learn an instrument even if it feels impossible to do so. Playing an instrument allows you to collaborate with others more effectively which is key to finishing a track or being part of a band. It also gives you the ability to perform all by yourself which can be empowering and lucrative.

Your music may evolve into something different than you ever expected, which happened to me, but that's a good thing. I still occasionally miss the days of being able to focus on singing alone as I can do more complicated vocals that way, but I actually feel more comfortable playing as I sing now. In the future I would love to have my songs professionally recorded. I probably won't play anywhere on the track, but I will be able to guide the process by establishing the chords and those steps are critical.

Earlier this year I became more serious about finishing my songs and sharing them so with my primitive guitar skills I decided to start posting videos on Youtube as it was the most manageable outlet. Now I have become motivated to perfect my sound so I am going to work on creating more professional recording of my songs so I can share them on Soundcloud instead. I'd like to work on making better audio files and forget about any form of video until I can make something really neat.

If you would like to play the guitar, but feel as if it is nearly impossible, here are a few tricks:

• If the guitar seems too overwhelming try the keyboard first. 
• This may give you the confidence to go ahead and try something different. 
• Ask a friend for a few mini lessons or search for a good video
• Try before you buy
• Some brands of guitar are easier to play than others
• Nylon strings are not as painful as metal strings
• Certain types are easier for smaller hands/ larger hands
• Take your time
• Just play until your fingers hurt, then play a little longer the next day...
• It gets better over time - trust me! 
• If you get frustrated put it down and try again later just don't wait too long
• Print a chord chart
• Study it and take it everywhere with you! 
• My favorite simple one 
• http://www.guitar-skill-builder.com/free-printable-guitar-chord-chart.html
• Follow tutorials of your favorite songs
• There are so many on Youtube
• If you are really new it helps to have your chord chart with you
• Don't give up! 
• The earlier you start the better you will become so just keep on going
• Even a few minutes every day really adds up in the long run

<3 KM

Tell Me Everything

At times I've found myself disconnected from others, keeping everything to myself. It's totally painful, physically and emotionally but sometimes it's just too hard to know what to say. I wrote this song on one of the days that I was feeling like that. 

Thankfully I've got some really good friends and an awesome family to help me through. Just listening to them and their experiences talking to my friends and telling them about absolutely anything and everything means the world to me. 

Tell Me Everything

by me

Mahalo nui loa to all of you lovelies who are listening to my songs. It is so nice to be able to share and I am looking forward to growing and evolving with all of you. 

<3 KM

If I Was the Wind - Original Acoustic #5

Recently I've made a big move and ever since then I've been trying to figure out where I really should be. I've lived in 3 states now, I know that's not a lot compared to others. It seems like a lot to me though but I would travel even more given the opportunity!

If I Was The Wind

We've recently moved from Kauai, HI. I lived there for over half of my life and I fell in love with the food, the people and the nature. There are places there that just instantly make me happy. I miss family, our favorite beach, my favorite mountain trails and I miss laulau like no other (meat wrapped in taro leaves - I just eat the leaves but they are the best thing in the universe). But when it comes down to it I'm still white which in many circumstances would automatically qualify me as a haole (somewhat derogative term for foreigner). 

My husband's entire family from both sides have been on Kauai for generations, plantation days and beyond. He has tons of aunties, uncles and cousins and it just seemed like he belonged there, although he was always the one who talked haole and not pidgin lol. I enjoyed being a part of big family parties and learning about the Hawaiian culture but I realize that it will never really be my culture. Then I got to thinking, "Well, what is my culture then?" 

I feel so separated from the homelands that my bloodline migrated from years and years ago. I'm not even really sure where that is. I'm some type of German, Scandanavian and English but at this point all of my family left in those countries are really distant and the holidays that we celebrate seem pretty Americanized too. It's no wonder why group culture is so important here, it gives us all a place to belong. 

Add that to the fact that the US was taken over less than 500 years ago and that Hawaii was overthrown less than 200 years ago and things get really weird. At that point in human history, you'd think there would have been a better way to negotiate things rather than just claim the land and pay reparations later. Between that whole ordeal, slavery, the holocaust and the notorious brutality of the Vikings what little I know of my ancestry sounds pretty brutal. And that's just about all I learned about in history class. Thank goodness for the peaceful hippy revolution of the 1960's! 

All in all I am happy to be where I am. I love all of the places that I've lived. If I had my way I would experience every culture. I think they are all so beautiful and interesting. There is so much to see, so much to do and so much to eat :P!

Hope that you all are having a great week!

<3KM